Monday, March 30, 2009

We've been robbed!

So today after class, I came home and was watching tv with my roomie Maren,

when all of the sudden we see this older man walk up to our door.
Confused, Maren walks up to answer it...
....seconds go by when Maren walks in with this man and says:

"Hey Andee, wanna help me take everything out of the drawers?"

well my first reaction was.. "uh..no..."
but unfortunately I didn't have a choice.

The man then proceeds to walk into our kitchen and starts taking off all of our cupboards!!

Now, I didn't want to be rude or anything but...
WHAT THE HECK!?!
I'm pretty sure I would like to be informed BEFORE some crazy old guy comes banging down our door and taking all of our cupboards and drawers! haha
So, I guess the old farm "staff" decided that they needed to "refurbish" all of the cupboards and drawers.

They sent everyone an email about it at the BEGINNING of the semester
(that of which I did not receive)
I was quite embarrassed because our house is not what you call "clean" right now.
(they took them from our bathrooms too)
So now,
Maren and I are trying to think of a story to tell the others when they come home..

we've thought of maybe saying we've been robbed,
or
we got in a fight and broke all of the cupboards and drawers,
or
just disappearing so they can come home and be confused until they find us,
and THEN make up a funny story.....



ALSO:
IMPORTANT REMINDER....

Please remember to send out your red envelopes for the
tomorrow.

It's a matter of life or death.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I AM BLESSED!!!

It has come to my attention recently that I put off the wrong message last week in this post.

That post was not meant to worry people,
to make people think that I was super depressed,
or to say that I'm suicidal.

Because I AM DEFINITELY NOT.
I am far from any of that.

That post was made mostly for myself.
It was to show that I have been thinking of only myself lately,
and when I do that,
it does not do good things.

I made that post to initiate that when I am only thinking of MYSELF,
I start feeling that way.
(like everyone)

It wasn't a post to tell everyone that I'm a depressed person that has nothing to live for anymore, because I definitely KNOW that is not true!

I'm super blessed.

SUPER BLESSED

like shown
or
(and many other posts)

there is nothing I should be feeling so depressed about.

So,
I apologize to those of you that took it in that way,
and
I apologize for making everyone think that I am a depressed basket case.

I AM NOT.
I'm human.

I should be more careful with the way I say things next time,
and
I apologize for the misunderstanding.
To clarify one more time.
That post was supposed to say:

"I have been feeling super down all week,
and
I have come to the conclusion that it's because I have just been thinking of myself.
Maybe I should stop consuming all my thoughts towards what I want,
and go do some service or something."

again, I'm super sorry for the misunderstanding

Thank you all for being so worried about me though!!
It sure makes me feel super loved! :):)

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Time Flies

Avery is 5 months old today.
I can't believe it has been that long

I will never forget that day

it was 5:17 pm
she was 8 pounds, 20 inches long,
and oh so beautiful.

I never understood the concept of "time flies" until now.
It feels like she was born last week.
I shed a tear for that.

I love you little Angel.

Friday, March 27, 2009

WOAH...

I can't believe it's already Friday.
This week has FLOWN by.

I think I slept for two days straight.
seriously.

I can't remember the difference between today, yesterday and Wednesday.

and I just realized that I missed American Idol.
thank heavens for DVR!

My Cheeks get bigger everyday,
but I have lost about 7 pounds since the surgery
YAY!!
Did all of it go to my face????

Josh brought me a Jamba Juice today.
I said no visitors
(because I have such a fat face),
but he came anyway.
he brought me a Jamba, AND my first cat.

If you haven't heard, I have decided I'm going to grow to be an old cat lady.
I hate real cats, so of course they will all be fake.
Josh gave me my first one!!


Thanks Joshy!!

This is a random post,
but I'm on Loritab so I'm not thinking completely.
Hope it makes sense,
and sorry if it doesn't!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Chipmunk Cheeks.

So today I got my wisdom teeth out.

I woke up at the early hour of 6 am
(can I just say I don't remember the last time I woke up that early
LUCKY)

My dad drove me to gene brown research,
and
I was admit into my room.

While I lay there anxiously anticipating this scary surgery, I tried to sleep.
I didn't have any success with that, until they brought me up to the surgery area.

They brought me to a waiting room, that of which I was the only one there, flipped on the movie dumb and dumber, and before I knew it I was asleep...
That is until the nurse walked in and gently told me that It was time.

I lay on the seat and stared up at the surgeon and his assistant.
I think I was quite out of it but I do remember telling them that I was scared to death of this little "procedure" so to be gentle.

As they put the needle towards my mouth to numb it, the pain was SHOCKING. I don't remember numbing shots hurting so bad!
They put the laughing gas mask on me and left the room to work on the other patient.

Alright, let me tell you that I have never felt so much panic in my life as I did at that moment. Isn't laughing gas supposed to relax you???? I swear I started hyperventilating and I just wanted to jump up and run out of that building as fast as I possibly could.

WHAT WAS I THINKING FOR COMING HERE?!

then, all of the sudden my eyes felt really droopy and I felt as if I was floating.
At first I thought I was dead. (well I mostly just hoped for it.. because of all the panic the laughing gas was causing)
then I just felt like I was in a dream.
I didn't even realize I was asleep until the surgeon walked in, tapped my foot and asked me how I was doing.

I don't remember what I said but next thing I know, the nurse was waking me up again.
They both then went towards my mouth.
I became extremely nervous, but my body didn't want to move.

you think the laughing gas was working???

That was when I heard the drill,
and a whole lot of pressure.

AHH!! scary.

He went on to do this to my whole mouth.
Yeah the best part was when I felt a whole bunch of pressure and then some cracking.
talk about freaking out. I didn't WANT to know what the cracking was.

I then was brought back to my room and I tried to watch baby mama, but about a half hour into it I started feeling the pain.

HORRIBLE pain.
my mouth was propped open with a ton of swabs that were trying to stop the blood, but I could still taste a good amount of it.

I tried to swallow,
but
gagged everytime.

Then all of the sudden I felt as if I had been punched in the face so hard that my whole jaw was disfigured. I tried to hold back the tears but they wouldn't stop.

wow. embarrassing.

the nurse walked in and he read off a paper
(he did this every single time he came in.)

He told me to mark the level of pain in like 30 different ways on the paper he was holding, but he wouldn't let me mark it until he read every single word on it. He slowly read:

"please rate your pain on a scale of one to ten"
tell me if your pain is,

Mild. (pause)

Moderate. (Pause)

Severe. (pause)........

I was about ready to grab that paper, rip it up, and demand medicine right away before I died.
too bad it wasn't that simple.
It took everything in me to control myself and to be patient while he ever so slowly read to me the words on each paper.

When he was finally done he said:
"Okay, now someone is going to come in and take your vital signs. After that I will bring you some medicine"

I swear he was just testing me to see how long he could go without giving me meds before I killed him.

I layed back down, still trying to stop the tears.
keep in mind I could barely talk due to the swabs jammed up in my mouth.

They took my vitals.
oh and
the nurse was training someone,
so she had them do it, which took twice as long, and then if she messed up she would stop and explain to her what to do differently. I thought I was going to die. I was getting SO mad. just give me the stupid medicine!!

FINALLY he came in with my pills, and then gave me two stop watches.

He told me that I had to push stop on the first watch when I started feeling the pain start to subside, and then to push it on the other when it was bearable.

wow.
that was the last thing on my mind.

But I did it, and was quite releived was the pain stopped.

It went like that for pretty much the rest of the time until finally many many MANY hours later, my mom came to my rescue and brought me home.

Now I have chipmunk cheeks and can't eat.
wow.
lol
what is so wise about wisdom teeth?????

Saturday, March 21, 2009

TODAY

was a very special day.

A day that I was lucky enough to be a part of.
What was so special about this day?
well,

Terri is now OFFICIALLY
ENGAGED!!


Last week Terri's boyfriend (then) Dustin, told me that he was proposing and needed my help.

well DUH.
like I wasn't going to help him....
who WOULDN'T want to?

He told me the plan and I totally had fun secretly planning it.
I told Terri the next day that my roommate needed a couple to take pictures of for class and she
wanted to know if they would do it.

Terri agreed and obviously so did Dustin.

So we set up a day. It was today at noon.
sure enough, today my awesome roommate Mandy pretended to be a photographer (since my REAL photographer roommate ELICIA was busy).
she took some awesome pictures

this is only ONE of the many

during the pictures,
Dustin got down on his knee pretending to pose


then.....
he pulled the ring out of his sock.
Yes I said his sock


and proposed!
It worked out just perfectly
and
I'm so excited for them

CONGRATULATIONS TERRI!!
I'm so excited to go dress shopping!


Here comes the bride man.
The most beautiful bride E V E R!!!
**************
Another reason that today is such a SPECIAL day,
is because it's my awesome roomate MAREN's 22nd birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAREN!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

The lucky oven mitt

So yesterday I almost burned our apartment down...twice.

The first time was during lunch.
I was making this cheddar broccoli macaroni pasta.
I was home all by myself,
and was watching a video on my computer,
while stirring the pasta.
That was when I heard the sound of a fire starting.
I looked down, just in time to see the flames underneath the pan.
I screamed...really loud,
turned off the stove,
took the pan off and started blowing on it.
(I never knew I would react that way...you would think I would hit it with a towel or something)
Well,
Eventually it died down
Just in time for Mandy to walk in and see the smoke.
It was quite embarassing, but the food ended up turning out..
Mandy even ate some!
Then for dinner I decided I would try to make chicken cordon bleu.
I have never made it before,
and was quite nervous.
SO,
I was taking it out of the oven to see if it was done
when Megan walked in.

I concluded that the chicken was not yet done and put it back in the oven while saying to Megan "Dude, I don't know how long to cook this chicken. I'm totally guessing."
I closed the oven door and threw the oven mitt on the stove as Megan walked over to talk to me.
All of the sudden we both see smoke.
I look over to see that the oven mitt is smoking and catching on fire!
I had left the stove on when cooking the outside of the chicken and forgot to turn it off!
I grab the mitt,
and again,
blow on it.
Megan bursts into laughter, grabs the oven mitt, and puts it outside as I turn on the fan and open all the windows for the second time that day.

That night, I brought the oven mitt back inside.
This is what it looked like,
and what it will always look like.
Luckily the Chicken Cordon Bleu turned out...pretty well...
Fast Forward to now.
It's 4 in the morning and I'm up with Mandy and her Boyfriend Levi.
Levi is doing Mandys homework, and Mandy is laying on the floor talking to us.
We are talking about how stupid boys are..
funny that Levi is here...and AGREEING with us.


Sorry my posts are so random lately.
I just can't help sharing these completely crazy and embarassing stories.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Wisdom, paper, and a sore behind

So yesterday my roommate Megan had this brilliant idea that we should go to a spinning class instead of to the gym like normal.
I liked the idea because I've been on bikes before and loved it,
and it sounded pretty simple......

So we walked there,
I realized that I forgot a water bottle,
and
we sat on the bikes while the instructor introduced herself.

As I started pedaling I realized that my seat was extremely uncomfortable.
about 15 minutes into the class, I thought I was going to DIE.
My back side hurt SO bad that I could barely move.
By the end of the class...I thought I was dead.
I never thought riding a bike would be

1 - so hard,
and
2 - so painful!

why in the world would someone make a machine that you SIT on have such an uncomfortable seat!?

I swear I have like 10 bruises.
I'm definitely paying for it now.

Ever had a bruised butt??
haha
try sitting down!

It's really a lot of fun.
So I woke up this morning to a phone call.
My mom signed me up with Gene Brown Research to get my wisdom teeth out.

Well,
they had a cancellation and wanted to know if I could come in on Tuesday.

SCARY!!

But I get paid for it.
So that always WONDERFUL.

WELL,
I have a paper due in 2 hours.
I should probably start working on it.

Monday, March 16, 2009

I'm on a roll...

Another Random Post,
but
I just gotta say a few things:

I saw this beautiful Angel last wednesday


I melt whenever I hear her laugh or see her smile.



I did notice that she doesn't like it when I kiss her cheeks...



but can you blame me?????



I LOVE YOU AVERY LEIGH!



Next thing:



This is my Uncle Scott and Aunt Maryjane


Let me just say,
I owe these two my life.


Let me tell ya why....


When Avery was born, Maryjane showed up at the hospital with a bag.

Inside the bag, it contained:

The best carmeled apple I have ever tasted in my life,
chocolate,
A hoodie from AE,
Two Shirts from AE,
and
Sweat Pants from AE.


Generous Right?


Well,
there's more


Two weeks After I got out of the hospital....
MaryJane and Scott took my to Hawaii to get away and relax.





It was the most RELAXING vacation I have ever been on.

EVER.






We were there for a week,
and it helped SO MUCH.

I owe her my life there right?

Well just wait,

Then Yesterday MaryJane called me.
She told me that she had put together a care package for me
and
to stop at her house on the way back up to Logan.

So when I got there......
There was a HUGE box of all sorts of food in it.

Eggs,
cake,
cookies,
cereal,
noodles,
$20
and
so so much more!

My Aunt and Uncle Spoil me.

See how I owe them my life?!!

Thanks MaryJane and Scott!!

If you can't tell,
I have AWESOME people in my life.

I'm super blessed.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

The Red Envelope Project



*****This is the most important post I have ever made.*****

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do this with me.

Together,
we could save lives


A peaceful protest to President Obama about his stand on abortion.
***Please note: The Red Envelope Project was NOT my idea, I am only trying to spread the word.***
Get a red envelope. You can buy them at Kinkos, or at party supply stores. On the front, address it to:

President Barack Obama
The White House
1600 Pennsylvania Ave.
N.W.Washington , D.C. 20500

On the back, write the following message

"This envelope represents one child who died in abortion. It is empty because that life was unable to offer anything to the world. Responsibility begins with conception."

Put it in the mail, and send it on MARCH 31st!

Go HERE for more information

(Don't Forget to go to the website after you have sent AS MANY AS YOU CAN, and submit your name)

It really makes me sick to think there are really people out there like this,
one of which is our PRESIDENT!
WHO did the people of this country elect???

It's something sacred



I am following in Mrs. R's footsteps.
my response to the BIG LOVE movie.

It upsets me that Tom Hanks is the producer behind this.
I really liked him.


Saturday, March 14, 2009

Some of the coolest people.

This is my Roomate Mandy
Yes, Mandy I AM using this picture.


I know, this is a COMPLETELY Random post,
but she is pretty much really awesome.



I got L U C K Y with my roomates.
I went up to school all by myself, and met all of my roomates when I moved in.


They are AWESOME.
I sometimes don't think I will ever stop laughing when Mandy and I are together.
Mandy and Eric.
no. They're not dating.


I have decided though, that if by some miracle I ever DO get married.
I am going to get a picture like this for my announcement.
ha.





This is
Megan. she's not technically my roomate,
but she is at my apartment more than she is at her own,
so she pretty much is.

I DON'T stop laughing when she is around. her nickname is "laugh of my life" because I really don't stop. she is SO funny. seriously. You would LOVE her.

We also recently just learned that we are distantly related..by marriage.
My awesome Aunt MaryJane's husbands, cousin..is Megans dad.
Crazy right?

I'm only touching her leg in this picture,
because she hates it when people touch her leg.

lol..in case you were wondering.
************


I would also like to take this moment to also thank my aunt
Natalie.

She ALSO had me babysit her crazily perfect kids on Friday night,

and paid me a ridiculously lot of money.
Why are people SOOOO aweosme??
I do not know.

Thanks Jimmy and Natalie!!
I love you!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Oh the beauty...

Yesterday was quite an eventful day.

I didn't do much,
but
It involved

MANY
Memories
and
LOTS of
Emotion

First,
I went to a birth mom class.
That was pretty spiritual
and
was pretty uplifting.

After that, I went on a very much needed girls night out with Keara and Terri.
I love love love them.



We talked about Keltson
almost the entire time.
We laughed,
We cried,
We hugged,
We Shared memories.
& at the end, I realized how much I needed that.

I miss him.
SO much.

So it's good to talk about him.

I haven't in a while.

on a side note:
The restaurant we went to was Dennys.
I LOVE the waiter there (he is the guy in the second picture taking those peoples orders.)

For those of you that do not know this, Dennys has free hot chocolate refills.
and
we have made it a tradition to go there.
Usually it's at least me and Josh that go.

however,

Today was the first time I have been without him.
the waiter definitely still remembered me!
He's the coolest waiter EVER
(sad that I don't know his name though).
He knows how much I absolutely LOVE whipped cream, so he brings us the ENTIRE CAN.
This is Josh, the first time we were given the entire can

This is me. The first time I experienced the entire can


The waiter pours our hot chocolate, and then gives us the can of whipped cream so that we can use as MUCH as we would like.

(Apparantly it's against the rules, so if you look in the second picture behind my arm, you will see that I'm hiding the whipped cream like he asked me to this time, since the manager was there. haha it's that tiny bit of red.)

I miss my friends from Riverton.
Life moves WAY too fast sometimes.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

SO generous

I would just like to take this moment to thank
and

They both were very generous and offered me some jobs to make money this week.
Jamie let me help her clean her house, and then had me babysit for two hours.
She was SOO generous with the amount she gave me

I felt SO GUILTY taking it.

Thank you Jamie!
seriously

Rebecca remembered that I needed money and offered me a babysitting job the other night.
Thank you Rebecca for being so generous!!

I love you guys and owe you BIG!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Face in hole!

The other day,
As I was doing my daily blog stalking (I know, pathetic right?)
This inspiring woman introduced me (unintentionally..since I AM a blog stalker)
I gotta tell you.
I just doesn't get better than this.

This is really how the movie was supposed to be.
Aren't we such a cute couple?? ha.

Megan B. & Mandy -- This one's for you!
I have to tell you, I have never laughed so hard when I'm the only person in the room, in my LIFE.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Eat Drink and be Merry...in a good way!

Breakfast on Christmas Morning '08
(this is only half of my family. ha.)


Breakfast is the most important meal of the day right?

Well,
When I'm up in Logan, I rarely and I mean RARELY eat breakfast

because
ONE, I don't have time and am always rushing out the door
and
TWO, I don't have money for very much breakfast food.

So Yesterday morning at about 9:00 my cute little brother Joey came into my room saying:
"Andee, mom made french toast! come get some"
(he calls ALL breakfast but cereal french toast)

You should know that I'm not much of a morning person and am not very alert when someone just wakes me up, so I put my hand on his head rubbed his hair, mumbled something I think and turned over and went back to sleep.

Seconds later he came in again and said
"Andee....breakfast is ready."

I don't think I responded that time.
If you haven't noticed, I have an extremely HARD time getting up in the mornings!

Then my other sweet little brother Casey walked in and said
"Andee! mom and dad made Pancakes, eggs, and sausage."
This is when I opened my eyes as I shot up in bed.

I had finally realized what Joey had been trying to tell me
and
I felt my stomach growl of hunger.
LITERALLY

Sure enough, I went upstairs to the smell of the yummy pancakes, eggs and sausage.
mm mm!!

My dad looked at me and laughed, probably mostly at my appearance.
and asked if I was hungry.

Of COURSE I was hungry.
The night before I had a hard time getting to sleep because I was so hungry! haha

So thanks to my very generous mommy and daddy I had the best breakfast I have had since Christmas!
(hence, the picture shown above)

Wasn't that so incredibly nice of them to make breakfast for their poor, broke, starving daughter?

I thought so.

Thanks Mom and Dad!
Love you!

Friday, March 6, 2009

What the???

So I was researching on my professor who I currently discovered some not so good news about.

you can find THAT news HERE

As I was researching, I came across THIS
and I have to say I did not expect my name to come up.

But it did.

Let's just say......

I never gave that person permission.


They did say that I have a picture of the cutest baby they've ever seen on my blog,
which is probably the reason I'm not super angry....
ha.

Spring Break!!

Spring Break here I come!!!!
No thinking of school for an entire week!!
What a WONDERFUL vacation!
Now....let's hope the weather
IS spring...

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Honestly

Honest Tag:
10 Honest Facts:
  1. My mom is my best friend
  2. I am currently in desperate need of a job!
  3. My Favorite movie is Ghost Town. Best movie EVERRRR
  4. I haven't eaten Cafe Rio for almost 3 months. It's a new record
  5. I love spending one on one time with each member of my family, but don't do it nearly enough.
  6. I am SO excited for Spring Break next week.
  7. am a HUGE night owl. I love the night time, and have a hard time making myself go to bed.
  8. My daily life consists of facebook, blogging, studying and school. That's it. lol
  9. I love kids!
  10. I'm a CNA, and my all time favorite job was working at an Alzheimers home. I would go back to the job in a heartbeat if I lived in Riverton and they were hiring again.


I tag: BreeAnn&Blake, Danny&Lisa, and Adam&Andrea

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Mr. Peterson...

This week I went to my first class on Monday.

Creative Arts.
My teacher (Dr. Peterson is what he likes to call himself) was not there, and there was a lady there giving out surveys for us to take.

She said no one had to take it and we could leave if we wanted to, but that she would appreciate it if we did for some kind of study or something.

Well,

I stayed, because I had nothing better to do and I had another class afterwards.

After all my classes that day, I was waiting to get on the bus when Lance came up to me and started talking about how he read something about our creative arts teacher in the newspaper. I wasn't sure if I believed him because the things he was saying were pretty ridiculous.

So I decided to check it out for myself.
Here is what I found:

USU names lewdness suspect
By Matthew K. Jensen and Kim Burgess
Published:
Saturday, February 28, 2009 11:41 PM CST
The Utah State University police department on Friday released the name of the professor who was issued a citation for misdemeanor lewdness following an investigation of a sexual act in a school steam room.Tom C. Peterson, a faculty member in Agriculture Systems Technology Education and the former head of the Interior Design program, is listed as one of the people involved in the incident. The Herald Journal received the information Friday afternoon by filing a Government Records Access Management Act (GRAMA) request with the school. Police had earlier declined to release Peterson’s name, citing direction from the university’s legal counsel.Police officials are still searching for a second man suspected in the case, which began at 6 p.m. Tuesday evening when a patron of the school’s Health, Physical Education and Recreation facility walked into the building’s steam room and allegedly saw two people engaged in a sexual act.The witness reported the incident to HPER staff, who called police. They issued a citation of class-B misdemeanor lewdness to Peterson on Wednesday after interviewing him. The witness also spoke to police, telling them he believed Peterson was one of the men in the steam room.

According to police documents, Peterson is scheduled to appear before a judge Tuesday.Law enforcement declined to give further description of the alleged lewd act, saying the investigation is ongoing.The professor did not return calls made by The Herald Journal on Friday. Later, USU spokesperson John DeVilbiss said Peterson did not wish to comment about the case.“We are saddened and concerned by what has been alleged,” DeVilbiss said.He added that the university is “not at a stage to take any disciplinary action” toward Peterson, adding that administrators will “allow for due process and let this work through the judicial system before we initiate any procedures.”Peterson is a long-standing USU faculty member who became an assistant professor in design and merchandising in 1976. Registration records show that this semester he is teaching a creative arts class with 419 students enrolled.

How sick is this?
This guy is married.

What is this world coming to?

Anyway,
I thought I would share because I just can't believe it.

This may not be a big deal to most of you, but it is to me because I'm not sure what is going to happen to my class now.

Plus, I just talked to this guy on Friday.
I can't believe things like this really happen.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Tests


I would like to take a moment to express my extreme hatred towards tests.

(I know this is totally against my last post,
but today was a pretty bad day so I don't care.)
I took a test on Friday.

I studied for the test for a WEEK and a HALF!
there was only ONE day out of that time period that I didn't study,
and that's because I was giving an adoption presentation in sandy
so I had to go home.

So I was pretty confident that I was going to do well on this test.
I actually was SO incredibely nervous,
but was confident I would do well.

SO,

Usually when we take a test here at Utah State, our professor has our test results within the next TWO hours.
well,

MY
professor decided he would be lazy and he decided not to
PUT THEM THROUGH THE MACHINE
until
TODAY.

So I have been stressing out like crazy, and extremely anxious for the results.
I got them today.
Talk about a waste of time.

I got 13/20.
62%.
I'm pretty stupid.

I am never studying again.
it's a WASTE OF TIME.

(the REALLY sad thing is my roomate didn't study until the NIGHT BEFORE, and she used my notes to do it...she got a better grade than I did.)

I despise tests.

I woke up this morning missing Keltson like crazy.
(he died in October)
I don't know why but I was really thinking about him
a WHOLE lot more than I usually do during the day.
So I was already pretty sad.

So when I received the email with my score,
and opened it.
I'm pretty sure my self esteem dropped even lower.
I just got up and left.

usually when I'm upset and want to cry, I go for a drive.
I don't know why.
So I did.

The second I got in my car I just started BAWLING.

Yes,
I should remember,
It was a NICE day today
I have good friends
a good family
and
many people supporting me with everything I do.
But,
can you blame me for feeling like a complete failure today?
can you blame me?
really?

Anyway.

I HATE TESTS!

Monday, March 2, 2009

A little Blessed




Okay, so I have been sitting here, looking at my screen, trying to figure out how to say what I want to say.


I even wrote a HUGE story about it.


But I just decided that the best way to put my feelings in words is to just say this.



I AM BLESSED.


and
Pessimism is a very bad habit to get yourself into.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Happy Happy Birthday!

This is Dustin.
ha.

He is Avery's wonderful Daddy.
Today is his Birthday.
Happy Birthday Dustin!!
Hope it's been WONDERFUL!!!