I'm grateful for...#5

I'm grateful for the Foster to Adopt program.

Without it,

I wouldn't have my cute little brothers in my life. They are so sweet and bring such a joy to everyone in the family.

I also wouldn't be married to Tyson.

It's because of Foster to adopt, that I met him.

He is the Love of my life and I am so grateful that I'm married to him.  

Wish I have parented?

I received a question on my last post,

that is a question I have also been asked a lot so I decided to answer it in a post as well.

The question was:

I can't help but wonder, now that you are married and a mom do you ever wish you could have parented Avery since now you have a two parent household for her? In hindsight, do you regret it or do you (or her adoptive parents) worry she might wonder why she was adopted and her sibling (through birth/blood) was not?

Short Answer: No.

Long Answer:

For those of you that are also LDS,

it's probably easier for you to understand this.

But I will try my best to explain it if you are not.

We understand that families can be together forever. The way to do that is to be sealed together for time and all eternity in the Temple. When we are married, instead of parting at death, we are sealed together for Eternity. Even After death.

This is something that I have a strong Testimony of. I am so grateful that we can be together forever. I can't imagine thinking that if my Husband or Family Member or Child were to pass away that we wouldn't be a forever family! It is so comforting to know that when a family member passes on, we WILL see them again and we WILL be a family forever.

So now let me explain something as far as Avery goes.

Avery's Birthfather and I would not have stayed together.

Our marriage would not have lasted. 

We wouldn't have been sealed in the Temple, which means we wouldn't be a forever family.

How do you think Avery would feel,

if she was the only one that was not sealed to her family?

Because Tyson and I were Sealed in the Temple when we were married,

Kalista was born into the Covenant which means she was born already sealed to us.

When Dustin and Andrea adopted Avery,

they were able to take her to the Temple and be sealed to her.

The only way that Avery would have been able to be sealed to us,

is if her Birthfather allowed Tyson to adopt her and let me tell you right now,

I know for a FACT that he would not have allowed that.

So that is one Major reason that I still know that Avery is where she is supposed to be.

Not once have I wished I had parented her now that she would be living in a stable environment.

Another reason is that just because she would still have a two parent home,

she would still be going to her birthfathers home every weekend.

She would still be passed back and forth.

I gotta say,

I'm having a hard time leaving Kali at my parents house over night for mine and Tysons Anniversary...

I would DIE having to do it every single weekend!

I hope this makes sense and that I'm not just rambling,

but marrying Tyson just confirmed to me that Avery is in the right place.

She is sealed to her parents.

and I know that as long as you are sealed to your family,

that everyone is a family in heaven anyway.

We're all brothers and sisters.

SO no,

I don't wish I had parented her.

not for one second.

But I love that girl so dang much!!

Which is why I don't regret placing her.

She is better off!

and when I see a post like THIS,

it just confirms my feelings even more :)

18 week Dr Appointment and the Best husband ever

I had my 18 week appointment yesterday

and I have my 20 week Ultrasound next week

(I'll be almost 20 weeks by then)

Everything looked good and good news,

my heartburn has lessened quite a bit within the last month!!

It was pretty bad,

but now it's pretty bearable.

Kali was hiding from the Dr when he tried to find her heartbeat.

It took a bit to find it and I'm not gonna lie,

I panicked just a bit when that happened.

But that's pretty normal. Especially for me.

I seriously worry about EVERYTHING.

It really is such a miracle that my little girl is growing in my belly...

it doesn't feel possible so I constantly worry that something is going to happen to her!

(It's apparant that it doesn't get better with each pregnancy. haha)

So,

things went well with that.

Then,

when I got home, I began feeling incredibely sick.

My little brother just tested positive for strep throat...

so I'm thinking it could be that.

I have a sore throat and everything,

but I also have a headache,

nausea

and extreme congestion.

I'm sure the Nausea is pregnancy related,

and I've had headaches before,

 but NOT like this!!

Anyway,

the point is I was feeling sick

(and it's only gotten worse today)

I got home around 4:30,

and Tyson got home at about 5:30.

When he got home,

he seriously waited on me more than ever.

Not only had he been working hard at work all day,

but then he comes home,

makes me a grilled cheese sandwich and soup

tickles my back,

gives my Tylenol,

prepares a bath for me

and makes sure I have everything I need.

Then,

when I remember that I made plans with Keara to play games with her and some other friends,

he drops what he's doing to relax,

and says we should go.

So,

he tells me I look beautiful,
(When I have wet hair flailing everywhere, no make up on and I'm in ugly pj's

It's obvious that's not the case! haha)

He tells me not to change,

and we go play games until we decide we need to go home to go to bed so we won't be tired for work.

THAT was only yesterday.

Today,

he worked way late,

in the freezing cold, on the roof of a store, in a blizzard.

He calls me when he's driving home and knows i'm sick so he picks up some dinner,

brings it to me in bed

and

makes sure I have everything.

Just like he did yesterday.

I absolutely LOVE him.

I definitely don't deserve someone so incredible.

He's gonna be an incredible Dad.

I love you Tyson!

I'll post another pregnancy picture next time :)

Being a grown up

So I guess,

Since I'm [supposed to be] a grown up now,

I have apparantly,

subconsciously of course,

placed blogging in the 'non-grown up' category.

I'm totally SLACKING in this area.

I love blogging,

but sometimes,

it's a huge pain!!

One reason,

because whenever I read someone else's blog I think to myself,

"how do they make their blog so cute? I want that."

and then I become discouraged.

haha, but lusting is bad.

So I will work on that :S

Here is an update on married life:

We are still trying to qualify for a house we found.

It's taking a while because,

since Tyson pretty much changed his entire identity,

he has absolutely no credit.

Which means,

we have to find a lender that is willing to just go off of my credit.

Which is kinda difficult if you've ever bought a house before.

BUT,

since we could no longer tolerate the HORRIBLE management at farmgate/timbergate apartments in Herriman Utah (i'm telling you the name of the apartment complex as a warning. do NOT consider living there. They are horrible),

hahaha..but seriously.

My wonderful parents,

have agreed to let us stay in the mother-in-law apartment in their basement until we can qualify for that house/find another apartment if we cannot qualify.

So,

this weekend we moved in.

We're hoping to get in to a house quickly, but you never know!

Which is another reason we moved in with my parents instead of getting another apartment.

We don't know how long it will take and we don't want to sign any contracts.

We also got our pictures back from our wedding.

If you're friends with me on facebook,

they're all there.

If not,

I posted a few here.

LOVE this picture. He is one years old and going to be an uncle just a month after turning two!!

Need a flower lady? Mine was completely AMAZING!

My beautiful Flower Girl

LOVEDDD our cake!!! I've got her number too!

Yes we did jump in the pool!!

 Sorry such a short random post!

I have to work tomorrow and it's late :)

Sick Night

Last night at about one in the morning,

I woke myself up because I was crying in my sleep.

As I sat up to recognize my surroundings,

a wave of nausea came over me and I quickly laid back down.

Tyson was up, sitting next to me in a split second.

He asked me if I was okay.

I could hardly speak because I knew that if I did, I would throw up.

After taking a couple of minutes to breath,

I told him that I was feeling really sick.

"What can I get you?"

He asked me in the sweetest voice ever.

I just looked at him again, trying to catch my breath again...

and explained that I had heartburn.

He was up in a second

and came back almost immediately with Ginger ale and tums.

After taking a few sips of the ginger ale and popping a couple tums in my mouth,

the nausea began to subside.

While I laid down trying to fall back asleep, trying to ignore the want to puke,

Tyson laid down besided me,

and tickled my back until I fell asleep.

This wasn't the first time I've been sick.

I was sick before I even found out I was pregnant.

But it was probably the worst it's been.

I'm not complaining.

In fact,

I'm SO GRATEFUL.

Being sick is proving to me that I'm pregnant.

if I wasn't sick,

I think I'd be worried.

I'm SO GRATEFUL for this experience

and

I'm SO GRATEFUL for my husband.

I have an incredible husband.

Someone that is there for me when I need him.

When I was carrying Avery,

I didn't have someone to tickle my back as I tried to fall asleep after waking up sick.

I didn't have someone there for me to grab me tums, or something to help my nausea.

I did have Dustin and Andrea.

They were there for me as much as they could be,

and were SOO AMAZING with helping me with anything they could during the pregnancy.

but having a husband,

that can be there when I need something in the middle of the night,

That can help me when I'm sick,

that's how it should be.

I'm so so grateful for him.

I'm so grateful for this child.

I'm so grateful to the Lord for giving me them both.

I'm so grateful for Adoption.

For it tought me to be grateful.

I know for a fact that if I didn't experience Adoption,

I wouldn't appreciate these experiences,

the small things,

and being sick...

Like I should.

Happy Birthday

Tyson and me on his last Birthday we spent together before his mission.

Today is Tyson's Birthday!

He is 22.

Happy Birthday Babe!!

I love you and I'm so lucky to spend the rest of Eternity with you!! :)

CRAZY BUSY!

I have completely abandoned my blog lately.

I have hardly had any time so, my apologies!! :D

So we've been married for almost a month

and it only feels like a week!!

We have been so incredibely blessed through all of this and I really don't know how I'm going to thank everyone.

We weren't sure how we were going to afford everything we needed for our house,

but after the wedding we discovered that we didn't need to purchase ANYTHING that we needed.

It's amazing how generous people are and I am SO GRATEFUL!

We are currently looking for a house.

Right now we're living in an apartment,

and feel like we're just throwing our money away!

So we'll see how this all plays out.

I will update soon with pictures from the wedding!

MARRIEEDD!!!

I married my soul mate on August 20th, 2010.

It was THE BEST day of my life.

The day started off amazing.

I woke up around 6:30,

and left for my hair appointment.

From there,

Tyson and my AMAZING Maid of Honor Keara

met me and we drove up to the Salt Lake Temple.

Because our Ceremony wasn't until 1:40,

We decided to do our pictures around temple square before so that we could still have our Luncheon before the reception.

(which, by the way, I would HIGHLY recommend)

We had our Photogapher and Videographer there at the same time

and I was so happy to see how well they worked together.

I LOVED it

It couldn't have been better!

Unfortunately, we don't have our pictures from the wedding day back yet,

but FORTUNATELY,

our amazing videographer posted our same day edit on Facebook,

so,

I'm posting it here:

Andee & Tyson SL Same Day Edit from Matthew Baker on Vimeo.

They did SUCH a good job!

I love them.

After the pictures,

we were able to go right in to the temple.

I can't even explain how amazing it was.

The happiness I felt while I was in there,

while being sealed to my Husband FOREVER,

was so amazing.

Words cannot express what an incredible experience it was.

After we were married,

we were able to go out for pictures with our family.

That probably took a total of an hour at the most and then we were able to get dressed,

and go right to the luncheon we had at the park.

The Reception was at 7 pm in my parents backyard.

Ask Tyson his favorite part,

and he'll tell you....

We jumped in the pool at the very end.

It was WAY better than I thought.

we were able to leave right after that.

My amazing aunt MaryJane, sent us to Park City until Sunday morning,

and then we went to MAUI until Friday Morning.

It was amazing.

I wouldn't change a THING about our wedding day.

I'm SO SO SO grateful for all of the amazing people in our life that helped make my day the best EVER!

Including the people that just came to the reception.

we were SO SPOILED through all of this.

We probably paid for 10% of the things we have been so very blessed with.
We have our apartment (which obviously we are paying for ;)!!)
We have everything we need already.
We received SO MUCH money in cash/gift cards,
that it paid for our entire honeymoon.
AND for all of the other things we needed for our apartment
(and there was quite a few things)

Avery was my Flower girl!

I will have those pictures posted when they come back,

there ARE a few on Dustin and Andrea's blog though :)

She was SO adorable.

I'm so grateful to them for letting her be part of the wedding.

I never posted my Bridals.

We got them done on July 21st at the Great Salt lake.

Tyson came cause I wanted him to be in most of them..cause a marriage equals TWO..not ONE!!

So here's just a few of those:

(I'll post the ones from our actual WEDDING DAY when I get them back!! :D)

Here's to an amazing forever with my incredible Husband.

I LOVE YOU TYSON!!

10 days!!!

I can't believe there's only 10 days left until our wedding!!

We've gotten a lot done...

but we still have a LOT to do.

I never have time for anything anymore.

I can't even go to work without stressing about everything I need to do when I go home.

But it's okay,

cause it's going to be worth it!

We got our apartment :)

Tyson moved into it about two weeks ago.

I LOVE it.

It has two bedrooms and two bathrooms

and is furnished with:

a washer and dryer,

a diswasher,

and of course a microwave and fridge!

We have a pantry and both bedrooms have walk-in closets.

I'll post pictures sometime!

I'm getting my endowments out THIS SATURDAY too :)

I hope that most everyone can come to the reception!

It's in my parents backyard.

I'll get better at blogging once things have settled down a bit after the wedding ;)

PLUS,

there will be lots of pictures!!

Friends with my mom on FB?

If so,

you may have seen this post from her:

"Bye Bye Andee Aguirre...hello Andee O*****"

[I thought it'd be best to leave out the new last name...since this blog IS public!!]

and then her response to the comments saying:

"I am referring all questions to Andee and Tyson...haha"

So,

I thought that now would probably be the best time for a blog update explaining this.

YES,

it is true.

My last name is changing...and my fiance's name is also changing!

HAHA confused?

allow me to explain.

Ernesto is amazing.

I have said this many many times before, but I haven't really explained some of the reasons why.

When he was 11 years old,

him and his 5 other siblings were pulled out of there homes and placed into foster care.

They seperated everyone but his two younger sisters.

They were pretty young and were adopted together.

From what I understand, they converted to the church shortly after.

Ernesto and his two brothers were all seperated.

He had an older sister that was pretty much on her own at this point.

him and his younger brother 's' went from Foster home to Foster home.

After about 4 years of this,

Ernesto was placed in a boys group home since they couldn't find another place for him to go.

His younger brother 's' was placed with foster parents named 'M' and 'R'.

after 's' told 'M' and 'R' about his older brother Ernesto,

they decided to go find him so that 's' could have his older brother back.

When they asked him to come and live with them and his little brother 'm',

of course he said yes and him and 's' were reunited.

When 'M' and 'R' introduced Ernesto to the church, he became immediately interested

and was converted to the church at age 16.

I met him about a year later.

At age 18,

Ernesto and 'M' got in a huge fight.

he was a teenager so obviously he wasn't thinking clearly and he left 'M' and 'R's' home.

He had become very close to my young woman leader through me so he went straight to her home.

They took him in for 8 months while he prepared for his mission.

In the mean time, 'M' and 'R' wanted him home to them. They ached for him to come home because he was their son. Although it wasn't official, they still saw him as their son. 

He loved this family he lived with. They have become very close friends through all of this, even more than before. He left for his mission in April of 2008. 

While he was out, 'R' wrote him constantly. He began looking forward to all of her letters and started realizing while on his mission that 'R' was his mother and had been from the start.

During his 2 year mission, 'M' and 'R' adopted 's'.

When Ernesto came home from his mission, him and 'M' and 'R' went to the temple. 

They all felt this day like Ernesto belonged in their family...but they did not communicate this to each other...

until last Wednesday the 21st. 

Ernesto and I were talking. He was talking about how much he wanted Eternal parents. We were getting married so he was going to be sealed to me and we were going to be our own Eternal family. But who wouldn't want parents to be in their Eternal family?  

So, after a long talk, he decided that he was going to ask 'M' and 'R' if they would adopt him. 

he did it that night.

The second he brought up adoption, 'R' started crying. 

They started telling him how long they have been waiting for him to ask this. 

They couldn't contain their excitement.

SO, while they were talking, Ernesto decided that because his last name was changing, 

he might at well change his first name too! (he wanted it to go with the last name) 

I am SO excited for them!

The Adoption was finalized on Friday!!

He was going to come to the FSA Conference with me...but we decided his adoption was a little more important!!! haha.

I was extremely disappointed that I couldn't be there. They were happening at the same time.
But at least I was promoting what an amazing thing adoption is!

I LOVE ADOPTION!!!

As of  Friday, Ernesto is not longer Ernesto.
He is now Tyson :)

He loves that name and I love it too.

I think he even looks like a Tyson.

It's really hard for me to get used to calling him Tyson...but I'll get it eventually.

SO! If you're coming to the wedding, please don't be confused when some stuff says Ernesto and some says Tyson...we had the announcements and sign in book made before all of this happened!!

So yes,

my fiance's name is different.

but NO, I'm not marrying someone else!!

haha ever.

The Proposal: Our Story.

So,

We decided to get married after picking out the ring. 

However,

I did not get the ring until yesterday!

(now you know why I didn't want to wait until I received the ring to start planning the wedding!)

It was being custom made.

So that was going to take a couple of weeks.

PLUS,

We talked about it and we didn't want to have to make payments on the ring.

He wanted to pay for it in cash.

and because I wanted a summer wedding, with the reception in my backyard and all,

it would have been FOOLISH to wait for him to propose!

SO,

here we are,

47 days before the wedding,

and I FINALLY have my ring!!!!!

Anyway,

To the story.

I was at work on Friday.

At about 5:00, I called Ernesto.

I missed him and because I didn't get off work until 7,

I wanted to talk to him on the phone.

Here's how our conversation went:

Him: Hello?

Me: Hi, whatcha doin?

Him: Driving home

Me: From where? I thought you got off work at 4:30

Him: I did

Me: ...okay...then why aren't you home yet?

(he works about 3 minutes away from his house)

Him: (obviously smiling) ...Don't worry about it,

Me: haha DUH!!

....

I figured,

after this phone call,

(he's not very good at lying/keeping secrets! haha)

That he OBVIOUSLY was on his way home from picking up my ring.

(which made me EXTREMELY excited. I have been waiting for this thing for like...EVER it feels like!!)

So,

out of excitement,

I texted my mom telling her that I was 99% sure he had my ring,

explaining why I felt this way.

About 45 minutes later,

and after telling my co-workers how anxious I was,

he called me back.

When I answered he immediately said:

"Hey, I'm about 99% sure you're WRONG about me having your ring"

I was SOOO Mad at my mom!!

So,

when I got home from work,

I decided to pretend that I completely forgot about the whole ring conversation...

but then he brought it up!

he did a pretty good job at making me believe he didn't have it this time.

He told me that he did drive out there,

but they were closed.

He said he called the guy and he said that because of the Holiday weekend,

they would be closed until Tuesday.

I was pretty disapointed about this.

I told him to just call him and tell him that Monday was my birthday and he really needed to propose before then...and that my coworkers told me that I couldn't come back to work without a ring. All of this was true.

haha.

But I knew that it wasn't possible at this point, so I just accepted the fact that he wasn't going to get it until at least Tuesday.

Well,

about 5 minutes later,

He walked up, kissed me, said he couldn't lie to me and that he had the ring.

haha,

because I'm a brat,

I was SOO Mad at him for telling me the truth!

I was like "this is the one time you can lie to me...DANG IT!!"

(yes, I do understand that I'm a brat)

So, for the next almost 24 hours,

I worked on trying really hard to forget that I knew he had the ring.

I wanted it to be a suprise proposal.

On July 3rd,

We were celebrating the 4th.

We had a bbq and then we were going to go to Riverton park to watch the Fireworks.

While we were eating,

my mom says:

"So Andee, we were thinking of hiking up Ensign peak tomorrow. What do you think?"

I sat there for a second.

This was totally obvious.

I didn't think it could BE any more obvious.

Why would we go hiking?

On a Sunday for that matter?

After Church??

Our family doesn't really do that..haha

At first I oppossed.

being the brat that I am (again),

I didn't want to KNOW that he was going to propose.

But,

then I started feeling guilty so I agreed with it and that was that.

About an hour later,

I went up to my Aunt MaryJane and told her to try to talk Ernesto in to proposing that night instead because I really wanted the ring and I knew that he was going to propose when we were hiking anyway.

She laughed,

told me I was a brat,

said no,

and I just decided to give up.

About 2 hours later,

we left to the fireworks.

It was my family,

My aunt MaryJane and Uncle Scott,

My Cousin Brandon and his kids,

and my sisters friends.

My Aunt found an AWESOME place right in the front behind the line we couldn't cross.

We had the front row of the fireworks.

The fireworks were supposed to start at 10:00.

At about 9:15,

I decided that I should probably run to the bathroom before the show started.

I told him this,

he said okay and I began walking.

On the way out of the park to the gas station behind us,

I ran into my cousin.

I started talking to him for a sec, then looked back at Ernesto who was motioning for me to hurry.

I thought he was being a little strange,

but just turned and proceeded to walk to the bathroom.

When I got into the gas station,

I saw the line.

It was WAY long just to get to the bathroom and I didn't want to wait that long..by myself.

Yeah yeah I know,

I'M A BRAT!!

So,

I decided to just go back to our blanket.

When I got there,

I told ernesto the line was too long,

then my Little brother Told me he REALLY had to go to the bathroom.

Well,

HE was a good friend to stand in line with,

and it was only like 9:30,

So I told my mom that I would just take him and we would go together.

While I was explaining this to her,

The people came on the speakers and began stating the rules.

He talked about how we can't cross the line and blah blah blah.

I wasn't paying attention because I was too busy listening to my mom tell me that it was too dark and she didn't want me taking him to the bathroom....

I was REALLY annoyed at this point.

I was like "What!?? I'm like...21 mom! You don't trust me to take your 5 year old to the bathroom!?!?"

She just responded "not right now".

I sat down,

rolled my eyes

and began scooting in to cuddle with Ernesto,

when the guy on the Intercom said...

"Can we get Ernesto Aguirre up here please?"

I looked at him as he stood up,

then at my parents....

at this point,

I started realizing what was going on!

I started laughing as he walked the VERY long walk up to the Microphone and Speakers.

When he got there,

He said "Andee can you come up here please."

I didn't know what to do at first.

my shoes were off so I stood up and looked at my family.

I knew my face was red at this point, and I began trying to get my shoes on.

My parents started yelling no and said to just go up there.

So,

I ducked under the "do not cross" line,

just as a Golf Cart came up.

the guy looked at me and said "here, let me give you a ride"

I got in the car and him and the four golf carts behind him followed as we drove up to my Sexy fiance.

When I got out,

I was shaking of...I guess...nervousness??

haha

Hundreds of people were watching!!

When I walked up to him,

he began speaking in the microphone.

I wish I could write what he said word by word,

but I can't because I was too busy staring in his chocolate brown eyes.

All I know is that he said the cutest things ever.

Then,

he got down on his knee pulled out the most beautiful ring ever and asked me to marry him.

I was so mesmorized by the GORGEOUS ring he had in front me that I said yes quietly.

He asked me to say it in the microphone and my response was

"Uh, YEAH!"

haha.

I guess I didn't sound very enthused about it.

but I WAS!!

So if you were there,

I'm sorry that I sounded so unenthusiastic!

haha I really was SOO in love with my ring that I couldn't speak.

When I finally got the beautiful ring on my finger and kissed him,

they gave us a golf cart and told him he could drive us back.

haha it was the most

awesome,

sweetest,

BEST way to propose to a bratty girl that was pretty much impossible to hide things from.

Cause I honestly had NO idea he would do it that way!!

I love him

and my ring...

is BEAUTIFUL!

The picture,

is what we gave them to make it look like...but we added our personality to it.

The picture doesn't do it justice AT ALL.

This the PRETTIEST ring I've ever seen in my whole life.

I LOVE it.

By far the PRETTIEST RING IN THE WORLD!!

Afterwards,

my mom did end up letting my take my brother to the bathroom.

and I guess the reason Ernesto was motioning for me to hurry the first time I tried to go, is because they were going to call him up any second.

So the second I was out of sight he ran as fast as he could up to the guys and told them to wait. haha. again. I'm a brat!!

OH and if you didn't figure it out,
Hiking up Ensign Peak was a Decoy...
They know me well. haha

SNEAKK PEEEKK

I only put one on my facebook.

But I like my blog more than facebook.

So I'm putting a couple more on here.

Here is an engagement picture Sneak Peek. :)

We already chose the announcement pictures.

So the announcement pictures aren't on here...

photos by AndreaTuftPhotography

Isn't my fiance hot?

I can't get enough of him.

I blame him!

It's funny.

I've really had a hard time blogging lately.

You can't blame me though.

I'm planning my wedding and all of my free time consists of...Ernesto.

I don't have TIME to blog!

I have to say though,

I was telling him tonight about all the bad luck that I had when I was dating.

and remembered,

for the second time since he came home,

WHY I had such luck.

I didn't date one decent guy since Before Kris.

(and I started dating Kris right before Ernesto left on his mission) 

I will just give you the first letters of their names while I tell this story...since these are not good things,

but I will go into a little detail of the history.

L-- The first guy I dated after Avery was born. She was four months old. We dated for approximately 3 weeks.  My roomates, specifically ONE, HATED him. I couldn't figure out why at first, but quickly realized what kind of guy he was and broke it off. The way he treated me afterwards wasn't what I would call nice. I ended up crying because of it, but quickly realized he wasn't worth it and moved on.

J-- He was very soon after L. We became pretty serious. I thought I was in love with him. We went ring shopping on the 4th of July, then, on the 5th of July (my birthday), he Broke up with me. I was COMPLETELY heartbroken.  He was the first guy I've ever had break up with me and I don't think that helped the situation at all.  However, now that I look back at it, I realize I only dated him because I wanted to be married. I thought that once I was married, dealing with Avery would be easier.  I realized a few months after we broke up that this was not true. I also realize now that I was DEFINITELY not in love with him. Not even close. He wasn't my type, and he has his priorities messed up. I feel sorry for him, but I hope that one day he can figure it out. I really do.

A-- After J, I quit dating. I was done with guys and planned on just never dating again. I didn't want a boyfriend. I knew that one day I wanted to be a mom, but for about 8 months, I didn't think it was worth the pain. I went on a few blind dates here and there, but never really made an effort with them. Then, one day my aunt said some things that made me decide that I should probably start dating again...even if I wasn't ready to get married, dating was the only way I would find my future husband when the time was right.  SO, I put myself out on the market. A, was the first guy I started dating after this.  I kept telling him that I didn't want anything serious, but he didn't get the hint. I told him that I wanted to date other people, but he still didn't get the hint...THEN, the day before Ernesto came home from his mission...was the day I found out he was coming home.  A asked me if he should be worried, since Ernesto was an Ex and immediately my response was "NO!" I didn't think there was anything there between me and him anymore so I seriously didn't think he had anything to worry about.  Obviously I was wrong. A didn't take it well. I didn't end things very well with him, but I know that he is find now so it's okay :)

I'm sure you're wondering why I tell you this.

WELL,

Ernesto told me that while he was on his mission, he prayed that I wouldn't get married while he was out. He PRAYED for this. I blame HIM for my bad luck while he was gone. Seriously. I BLAME HIM!!

haha.

He's sitting here,

waiting for me to stop typing cause he wants to cuddle.

SO please excuse me,

I would like to cuddle with my future husband.

But,

Blame him for my bad luck these last two years.

Because it's seriously ALL HIS FAULT!!!!

:D

It's okay though.

Cause in the end, he was worth it!

I'm slow...I know

Sorry ...I know I take forever to blog lately.

LIFE IS BUSY!!

Okay,

So we're getting married August 20th.

We seriously considered waiting until next summer...but then I decided that's stupid.
I don't want this extravagant wedding.

I just want to get it over with.

I HATE planning weddings.

They're WAY too stressful thanks :)

Then we thought maybe we'd wait until like October or November.

That's about as long as I think engagements should be.

But,

I don't want it to be cold!

August is the warmest month here in Utah.

I want a backyard reception.

So,

we're doing it in August.

for the right reasons.

If he had come home from his mission in January,

The wedding would have STILL been in the summer.

July or August.

Just so you all know.

We're getting married in the Salt Lake temple.

That is also something that took us a while to decide on.

It was originally Oquirrh Mountin Temple...

But my whole life I've imagined myself getting married in the Salt lake Temple.

and Ernesto doesn't care either way.

So we changed it :)

I'm Just SOO thankful that we CAN get married in the Temple.

It's a goal that I've had since I was a little girl.

That will NOT change.

It's important to us both and it will stay that way!

I know a lot have asked for a picture of us.

I put one up a couple of posts before...but none of you knew that was him!!

So,

I'll add some others.

We tried playing in the rain a couple of days ago.

That's what these are from.

(Sorry...this one is kinda blurry)