Saturday, September 25, 2010

Sick Night

Last night at about one in the morning,
I woke myself up because I was crying in my sleep.

As I sat up to recognize my surroundings,
a wave of nausea came over me and I quickly laid back down.

Tyson was up, sitting next to me in a split second.
He asked me if I was okay.
I could hardly speak because I knew that if I did, I would throw up.

After taking a couple of minutes to breath,
I told him that I was feeling really sick.

"What can I get you?"
He asked me in the sweetest voice ever.

I just looked at him again, trying to catch my breath again...
and explained that I had heartburn.

He was up in a second
and came back almost immediately with Ginger ale and tums.

After taking a few sips of the ginger ale and popping a couple tums in my mouth,
the nausea began to subside.
While I laid down trying to fall back asleep, trying to ignore the want to puke,
Tyson laid down besided me,
and tickled my back until I fell asleep.

This wasn't the first time I've been sick.
I was sick before I even found out I was pregnant.
But it was probably the worst it's been.

I'm not complaining.
In fact,
I'm SO GRATEFUL.

Being sick is proving to me that I'm pregnant.
if I wasn't sick,
I think I'd be worried.

I'm SO GRATEFUL for this experience
and
I'm SO GRATEFUL for my husband.

I have an incredible husband.
Someone that is there for me when I need him.

When I was carrying Avery,
I didn't have someone to tickle my back as I tried to fall asleep after waking up sick.
I didn't have someone there for me to grab me tums, or something to help my nausea.

I did have Dustin and Andrea.
They were there for me as much as they could be,
and were SOO AMAZING with helping me with anything they could during the pregnancy.

but having a husband,
that can be there when I need something in the middle of the night,
That can help me when I'm sick,
that's how it should be.

I'm so so grateful for him.
I'm so grateful for this child.
I'm so grateful to the Lord for giving me them both.

I'm so grateful for Adoption.
For it tought me to be grateful.
I know for a fact that if I didn't experience Adoption,
I wouldn't appreciate these experiences,
the small things,
and being sick...

Like I should.

5 comments:

StefanieJinelle said...

I conceived last night. We're pregnant friends ;) hahahaha. This makes me so excited to get pregnant though! I understand the whole not having someone always there to help you out when you need it. Tyson is a fantastic husband for you and will be a wonderful father :)
I know I will seriously appreciate everything with my pregnancy. Bring it on heatburn, I LOVE YOU! And I love you too Andee :)

cdemie said...

this was a nice post...I love it! Hope you feel better sooner than later:)

Davin & Alli said...

i felt the same way at the beginning of my second pregnancy! having a husband who loves you and wants a child as much as you do makes a world of difference!

A Life Being Lived said...

I loved this post Andee :) I'm a birthmom who placed just this July. I dream of the day that I am married to a worthy man and we build a family together! And I will be grateful for every minute of morning sickness, swollen ankles and the rest. Congratulations!!!!

Val said...

This was so real and beautiful. I am so happy for you & Tyson and the babe you are carrying.
I really know how you feel (for part of what you were referencing). We were hoping to be pregnant for a few years before we got our son and I was so grateful for being nauseated--so grateful that it meant everything was okay.
Thank you for sharing this Andee, you really are such an amazing person.