Time for an apology

Here's another post, with my poor, very poor writing skills.

But I"m gonna try k? haha

When I'm pregnant, I'm so much more moody than anyone can even fathom.

I've been feeling pretty bad about this for quite some time,

but now I'm going to just suck it up and admit that I was wrong.

THIS is the post I'm talking about.

I don't take back the way I feel about the subject,

but I do take back the way I went about writing it.

I understand that there are good and bad ways to go about things and I know I went about this the wrong way.

I could have been more sensitive to other peoples feelings.

But in all honesty,

I have the HARDEST time understanding how someone can sit there and think Abortion is okay.

I don't get what goes on in their brains and I never will.

Here's the thing.

I get my point across when I keep my temper under control.

When I get angry about something,

I can be MEAN.

Not just rude, downright mean. Not on purpose.

I just get so frustrated that I say EXACTLY what is on my mind.

Yes I'm one of those people.

I don't really sugar coat anything. When I feel a certain way, I just say it.

That get's 10x worse when I'm pregnant.

I understand that it's bad but in all honesty, I would LOVE if people were always completely honest with me.

 That way, if they didn't like me, I wouldn't have to waste my time. Plus can you imagine that great communication!?

haha I'm serious.

Sometimes I just hate it when people don't tell me if I'm bugging them, or if they like something I said, or anything like that. I just would absolutely love it if everyone just always said what was on their mind. BUT. That's not how the world is and everyone wants to think that everyone thinks they're perfect.

Crap. I did it again.

Sorry.

Anyway,

back to why I am making this post.

That Abortion post I made was very blunt and not sugar coated at all.

I don't sugar coat the way I feel about adoption, so I figured I shouldn't sugar coat anything...cause it's the way I am!

But I am writing to say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for the Harsh words. I'm sorry for being so blunt.

I know this is my blog. I know I should be able to say what I want, but I have not been able to get that post off of my mind since I posted it. It's the reason I stopped writing on here so much.

It was because I was so hormonal and pregnant.

That's not a good excuse, but seriously. I'm mean when I'm pregnant.

Ask my husband. Bless him for putting up with me.

Nobody is perfect okay?

But this is my sincere apology.

I'm sorry for offending those that I offended.

I'm not saying that I agree with you, but I am saying sorry for the words that I said and the way I went about it. I should not have been so harsh.

<3

The one thing I am more passionate about than Adoption...

The incredible Stefanie made a post yesterday.

I gotta say it hit home for me more than ANY other post I've ever read.

If you want me to lose complete respect for you in less than 10 seconds,

just say these four word to me:

"I've had an Abortion"

I in no way see my losing respect for you as judgemental.

WHY?

Because if you have had an abortion,

it seems quite obvious that I care more about that Child you've killed more than you.

Which is quite sad.

I can't imagine someone loving my child more than me.

Abortion is the one thing that I can honestly say I am more passionate about than Adoption.

Adoption is the BEST option!

I love it SOO MUCH!

But I would never ever say that someone was wrong,

or being selfish if they chose to single parent.

That is there decision and that is them doing what they think is best.

and it very well could be.

But Abortion??

There is NOTHING anyone can say that will make me think that is a good option to choose.

It is NOT best for that child they are carrying.

That Child isn't even being born!

Instead they are bruttally murduring it.

yeah,

I gotta say,

I don't know anyone that wants to be murdered.

Do you?

has anyone walked up to you and said

"I wish someone would murder me today."

Or better yet,

has anyone ever said

"I wish my mom had just had an abortion when she was pregnant with me."

yeah,

didn't think so.

Before I go on,

I would like to admit that my writing skills have hit the toilet.

I don't know why but I can't seem to write what's on my mind as well as I used to...

I'll call it pregnancy related. ha.

Because of this,

I've decided that I'm just going to show this video.

I am SO passionate about this that the best way for me to state my feeling is by showing this chilling video.

I watched it when I was pregnant with Avery.

I cried all day after watching it.

I couldn't believe that someone would do this to a child.

I am pregnant again.

I gotta tell you now that I can't watch it.

I have a child inside of me right now.

She is moving as we speak.

She is playing around in my belly and getting bigger every day.

It kills me to even entertain the thought that this happens to other baby's like her.

I am getting emotional just typing it.

It kills me to think that when I was pregnant with Avery,

people chose this option over Adoption.

I can't imagine EVER doing this to Avery,

to my CHILD.

To something that is COMPLETELY depending on me...

and this is how you show them that you care?

The video is long, but it's facts. WATCH IT if you don't believe abortion is murder.

After watching this,

you tell me if it's still just TISSUE that you're getting rid of.

Mark Shultz

These videos make me cry

Thank you Becca for showing me the first one,
and Rachelle for showing me the second.

I LOVE THEM!!

I wish the whole world would watch them both.

Some People..

I know I talk about this subject a lot, but I just gotta say something.

I had an experience tonight that was far from pleasant.

It involved a conversation with a certain person.

It involved the subject of Abortion.

Now if you know me at all, you know that I am extremely passionate about this certain subject, and anyone that portrays even remotely that Abortion is good....well....they are gonna hear it from me...

One thing he said was:

"I don't understand why you would put yourself through all this pain and suffering when you could simply just abort the thing."

I was driving when he said this and I about pulled over and pushed him out of the car.

my blood with boiling.

HOW CAN SOMEONE THINK THAT WAY!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Maybe because if I had gotten an abortion, that would have been MURDER! maybe because yes, I wouldn't have gone through the pain and suffering that placing for adoption causes, but I would have had to face with the fact that I had killed an innocent little child. Maybe because of the incredibely deserving GUILT that I would feel all the time for not allowing this Innocent child into this world.

I KNOW I would have always wondered what this child LOOKED like, what their INTERESTS were going to be, What they were going to ACCOMPLISH in life, what their PURPOSE in life was, what they would CONTRIBUTE to the world. what their PERSONALITY would be like.

....I could go on and on forever.

Abortion never crossed my mind when I discovered I was pregnant, and when someone would mention it, I got very angry.

Abortion is MURDER.

I love sweet little Avery. It makes me literally sick to my stomach to even THINK that she wouldn't be here right now.

She has changed my life. for the better.

A haunting statistic

For my writing class, we have an assignment.

It's a pretty huge assignment,

But I have been super excited about it.
we have to do a presentation on something that we are passionate about.

You all probably guessed what I'm doing it on....

that's right.
ADOPTION.
of course.
I am mainly focusing on open adoptions.

I have been working on this assignment more than any assignment that I currently have
(probably not the best idea..but this is my favorite class)

However,
I have been overcome with more emotion than I expected I would while working on it.

I am currently sitting here
in the library,
surrounded by a number of books that I found on open adoptions.

I love open adoptions.
I LOVE THEM
It has helped me heal in ways I never thought possible.

But that's not the point of this post.

while researching,
I have came across one particular fact that haunts me to the core
Here it is:

"In the United States, voluntary placement of children as a remedy for unplanned pregnancy has changed since the landmark Roe v Wade Supreme Court decision legalizing abortion. According to the National Center for Health Statistics, prior to the 1970's, approximately 9% of all never-married women (and 19% of white never-married women) experiencing unplanned pregnancies placed their babies for adoption.

BUT,

since the 1973 Supreme Court decision [aka, when abortion became legalized] and because of changing societal attitudes about the legitimacy of single parenthood into the 1980's, fewer than 2% of unplanned pregnancies result in placing the child for adoption.."


that statistic upset me to the point where I had to stop reading and take a break due to the many tears in my eyes and the complete anger and disgust I feel towards abortion.

Lately,
I feel like everywhere I go, I am reminded of what a horrible disgusting thing abortion is.
I'm reminded of those innocent little children that are victims of this horrible selfish act.

Does anyone else find this statistic disturbing???

We've been robbed!

So today after class, I came home and was watching tv with my roomie Maren,

when all of the sudden we see this older man walk up to our door.

Confused, Maren walks up to answer it...

....seconds go by when Maren walks in with this man and says:

"Hey Andee, wanna help me take everything out of the drawers?"

well my first reaction was.. "uh..no..."

but unfortunately I didn't have a choice.

The man then proceeds to walk into our kitchen and starts taking off all of our cupboards!!

Now, I didn't want to be rude or anything but...

WHAT THE HECK!?!

I'm pretty sure I would like to be informed BEFORE some crazy old guy comes banging down our door and taking all of our cupboards and drawers! haha

So, I guess the old farm "staff" decided that they needed to "refurbish" all of the cupboards and drawers.

They sent everyone an email about it at the BEGINNING of the semester

(that of which I did not receive)

I was quite embarrassed because our house is not what you call "clean" right now.

(they took them from our bathrooms too)

So now,

Maren and I are trying to think of a story to tell the others when they come home..

we've thought of maybe saying we've been robbed,

or

we got in a fight and broke all of the cupboards and drawers,

or

just disappearing so they can come home and be confused until they find us,

and THEN make up a funny story.....

ALSO:

IMPORTANT REMINDER....

Please remember to send out your red envelopes for the

RED ENVELOPE PROJECT

tomorrow.

It's a matter of life or death.

The Red Envelope Project

*****This is the most important post I have ever made.*****

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do this with me.

Together,

we could save lives

A peaceful protest to President Obama about his stand on abortion.

***Please note: The Red Envelope Project was NOT my idea, I am only trying to spread the word.***
Get a red envelope. You can buy them at Kinkos, or at party supply stores. On the front, address it to:

President Barack Obama

The White House

1600 Pennsylvania Ave.

N.W.Washington , D.C. 20500

On the back, write the following message

"This envelope represents one child who died in abortion. It is empty because that life was unable to offer anything to the world. Responsibility begins with conception."

Put it in the mail, and send it on MARCH 31st!

Go HERE for more information

(Don't Forget to go to the website after you have sent AS MANY AS YOU CAN, and submit your name)

It really makes me sick to think there are really people out there like this,

one of which is our PRESIDENT!

WHO did the people of this country elect???