I'm writing a book...

yes, you read that right.
I am writing a book.
(laughing yet?)

It IS on my list, so I decided I should get started since it may take 2 years to finish.

This book is about my life.
haha suprised?

I sound so conceded or like the world revolves around me or something,
but here is why I'm making it about my life.

First because I have absolutely no imagination at all.
like not any whatsoever so there is no way I would be able to write one that is imaginary and completely fictionous,

and Second, because back when I was about 16 years old I read the book Megan by Jack Weyland.

Jack Weyland is an AMAZING LDS author and I have read many of his books.

This particular book is about a girl that finds herself pregnant.

It tells the story of how she decides to place this child for adoption.

It goes back and forth between her story,

and a couple that is suffering from infertility.

It tells of the pain and heartache that comes from infertility.

It also tells of the pain and heartache that comes from placing.

I haven't read this book since I was 16,

(I think I'm going to start reading it again tonight)

but I really think that this book had an impact on my decision to place.

I remember when I was trying to figure out whether or not to get married or place Avery for adoption, this book came to my mind on more than once. I kept remembering this couple that was longing for a baby. I remembered the heartache that this family felt. I remembered crying for this mother as she longed for a baby.

I also remembered crying at the end of the book when Megan was going through the emotional and very difficult to place this child. I cried and I thought after I finished that book "good thing I will never have to deal with something like that. I don't know how I could ever place my child. It would be so incredibely hard."

Little did I know...I would be doing JUST that 3 years later.

Anyway,

yes. This book had an impact on me.

So the second reason I am writing this book about my life,

is because I'm hoping that MAYBE..if I can even (by that SMALL chance) get this book published..

maybe I could make someone think more about adoption if they find themselves in this situation.

(and it's most likely going to be more than just my adoption story...I really hope that's not a mistake..I'm thinking that could help someone too?? maybe??)

Crazy thought?

Maybe.

But it's worth a try.

Right??