What a day

Today Dustin Andrea and Avery, are officially an Eternal Family.

I have to say I was worried about the way I would handle it all.

In fact,

I was terrified as to how I would react.

I thought that I would be crying tears of sadness all day.

But that's not how it went down.

at all.

As I was driving to the Draper Temple,

I was overcome with the most comforting feeling.

It was the exact feeling I felt when I was in the hospital,

particularly on placement day.

As I walked in to the waiting room and sat down,

The spirit was there. I felt at such peace as I sat and waited for them.

As time went by,

familiar faces started appearing.

before I knew it, many people were coming up to me and telling me what an amazing ceremony had taken place.

I felt such an overwhelming feeling of love and gratitude towards every one of them. I couldn't believe how many people were coming up and talking to me. Even people I had never met before were talking to me as if I was a good friend. I was so greatful for that. It meant so much to me. I don't know if any of them read my blog, but if they do, I would like to personally thank each and every person that made me feel so welcome. It meant more than you will ever know.

A few minutes later, I looked up and Dustin was walking into the waiting room. I couldn't contain my excitement. As I stood up I looked over and saw Andrea and Avery. All three of them were dressed in white. I walked straight up to Andrea and gave her a hug. As we hugged, I began to cry...but it wasn't sad tears like I had feared, it was tears of complete joy. I was so excited for them I could hardly stand it. I then hugged Dustin and we walked out of the temple so they could take pictures.

What a beautiful family they are. When the time came to take the "group" pictures, I began feeling really awkward. I felt like I was someone standing in on someones family pictures. That feeling didn't come because I felt awkward around them because seriously..they are some amazing people I can't even emphasize that enough..but because I finally realized that I really am okay with all of this. I really do truly believe that this is Avery's family and even though I love her SO much, she really isn't my family. She was sent here to be in Dustin and Andrea's family. she is THEIR child and for the first time since I discovered I was pregnant, I was 1000%, EMOTIONALLY and spiritually, CONTENT with it.

Spiritually I have known the whole time...but emotionally...there has always been a part of me that hasn't been able to cut the chord. At first that scared me. I was worried as to why I felt that way, but as I drove home, tears streamed down my face as I realized that this is a good thing. Thank you Dustin and Andrea. Thank you from the bottom core of my heart. I couldn't have ever felt this way without you.

An hour later, my mom and I went to Avery's blessing at her house.

WOW is all I can say.

more people came up and talked to me,

more people made me feel welcome,

more people amazed me.

Dustin gave Avery such a beautiful blessing.

By the time it was over,

I was bawling my eyes out.

Even though I know with every part of me that Avery is their daughter,

I still love her so much.

I think I will always have a special connection with her.

Even if she's NOT in my family.

Then Andrea bore her Testimony.

WOAH.

I think I embarrassed myself with the many tears that were coming out of my eyes.

Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your lives Dustin and Andrea and congratulations on becoming an eternal family!! I love you!

After that amazing experience, I came home and went on a not so amazing date..haha.

More about that tomorrow... for now..I'm just going to enjoy the fact that Dustin and Andrea have an eternal family, and that I am 1000% CONTENT with my life :)