Wednesday, October 28, 2009


Dear Beautiful Avery,
One year ago today,
I saw you for the first time...

You had ten tiny fingers...

Ten Tiny toes...

and big beautiful eyes.

I couldn't take my eyes off of you.

You hardly cried...

Or even slept.

and when you would look at me,
It was as if you knew what was going on.
You seemed so completely content and happy.

I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much.
I didn't know the true meaning of love, until I met you.

I have never suffered as much pain and heartache as I did the day I had to put your needs ahead of mine...

...The day I placed you into the arms of your loving, incredible, parents.

But I knew it was the right thing Avery.
I knew that you would have the EXACT life I wanted you to have.
The kind of life I couldn't give you...including an Eternal Family.


you are still the most beautiful little girl I have ever met.

you are happy as can be...

You are my little princess.

The bond we have is different from any other.

No one will EVER have the kind of relationship with you that I have.
We are lucky.

I still think about you everyday.
I miss you every day.
But I know you are where you are supposed to be.
I know you are in the best of hands, with amazing parents
and I am SO grateful and lucky to be in an open adoption with you and your family.

I love you more than words can express.
Happy Birthday Avery Leigh.

It is so hard to believe...

With SO much Love,
Your Birthmom


Mae AJ and Conner said...

You amaze me Andee. I had Chills the whole time I was reading this. Happy Birthday Avery!!

Andrea said...

What a sweet post. She is so lucky to have you as her birth mom. I can't believe she is one. We love you Andee!

Queen Mama said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVERY! She is gorgeous. And your words Andee, send goosebumps down my back. You have a way with them :)

Ashley Bennion said...

I have been thinking about you lots knowing today was Avery's birthday. You are truly one of my heros - Love you Andee Leigh! Happy Birthday Avery!

Angee said...

Every time I read your blog, my testimony of adoption grows! I can't wait to find our birthmom and have a relationship with her like yours with Andrea. Happy Birthday to Avery and all the love to you!

Our Happy Family said...

Wow...ok thanks for not warning that I would cry. You are so amazing. Anytime I read anything about adoption, birth mom's, or birth dad's I always seem to tear up. We have a love for our daughters birth parents that is so special and strong just like Im sure Avery's parents do with you.

Mrs. Black said...

I heart this. Happy Birthday Avery!

Krystal said...

I wasn't going to get online tonight, and now I'm glad I did... this post made me cry. Happy birthday to sweet little Avery... she is really so beautiful, and the luckiest little girl around!

Andee, your testimony inspires me to be a better person every day. You are *amazing* in every way. I hope to meet you someday because I think you are incredible. I hope you had a great day today, and good luck with your new job.

brittany michelle said...

tears of happiness. you are so lucky to be her birthmom and have the relationship with her and her parents that you have. i'm really happy for you, and happy birthday avery! you are such a beautiful little girl! keep smiling like you do in your pictures for the rest of your life :)

StefanieJinelle said...

Wow. Can you even believe that it's been a year?! I love you girl.
Avery is a beautiful girl and she's so lucky to have you as a birth mom. (: