April: Funny Conversations

I have been thinking and I have decided that I'm going to make one post a month about funny conversations that take place in my life during that month.

My blog needs a little more positivity and I have a hilarious family, with two little brothers that don't go a day with out cracking me up and friends that always make me laugh.

So,

Here goes the first month!

I hope others enjoy it as much as I have!

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Me: It seems like there have been a lot of babies named Calvin lately. It's wierd.

Mom: Calvin? that's random.

Me: Yeah

Joey: (to himself) Just like Alvin and the Chipmunks. (To me) Andee, can we go see Alvin and the Chipmunks?

Me: Sorry Joe, Not today.

Joey: Andee, remember that I love you.

Let's just say it was hard to stick with "no" after that...

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IN THE CAR DRIVING TO THE TOY STORE

Casey: Joey! Stop it! I don't like that.

Joey: Yeah but I like it.

Casey: But I don't Joey!

Joey: Well do it to me then...

Casey: NO!

*Joey does whatever he is doing to him again*

Casey: JOEY! Stop! How many times do I have to tell you to stop?

Joey: mmm...5 more times.

Casey: STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP.....

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ON THE WAY BACK HOME FROM THE TOY STORE

(They bought Marbles with the $1 each of them had)

Joey: Casey! Your stink breaths.

Casey: Then don't smell it.

*2 minutes later I hear gagging*

Me: Are you okay Joey?

Joey: Tell Casey to stop breathing on me.

*5 minutes later*

Casey: OW! Joey you just hit me with your Marbles.

Joey: Sorry Casey

Casey: Stop hitting me with your marbles

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Me: (Answering my phone) Hello?

Mom: Hi, (trying to control her laughing) Dad said that he would rather stab himself in the eye with a hot iron then go to ****** (blocked out for a reason)

Me: (laughing) Why?

Mom: I guess he just really doesn't want to go.

Me: haha okay...

****

G: Opa, How do you get a guy to leave you alone?

Opa: Buy yourself a gun.

****
Alex (text from him):  What are you up to?
Me: I'm taking my Opa on his Errands
Alex: Tell him I say Hi.
Me (to my Opa): Alex says hi
Opa: Alex who?
Me: just a guy I'm dating
Opa: A guy you're dating?? Do I know him?
Me: No.
Opa: He's crazy.
Me (to alex): He says you're crazy
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Hope your month was filled with awesome conversations like me! :)

I love Tax Day.

Here is Why:

Two years ago yesterday (Tax Day),

I met Dustin and Andrea for the first time EVERR.

We went to cafe rio yesterday to Celebrate.

I can't BELIEVE how big Avery is getting.

When I got there and was walking in,

Andrea and Avery were walking in too and Andrea stopped and said

"Avery who is that?"

and right away Avery replied

"Nanee"

I LOVE that Avery knows who I am.

I LOVE that she can say my name

(she is even getting better. she sometimes says Anee)

She is talking SOOO much now

and

she can say "Ciao" when you tell her goodbye.

It's the cutest thing ever!

I am so so grateful to Dustin and Andrea.

They are the reason that Avery knows who I am.

One of the biggest fears I had after placement was that Avery would never remember who I was.

That everytime I would see her,

I would just be a stranger to her.

But that's not how it is at all.

I LOVE Dustin and Andrea for that.

They haven't ever let me down. 

I am so grateful for them

and 

I am so grateful that they were put in my life. 

Yesterday was a great visit

it reminded me of the Blessings I have

and

it reminded me of the wonderful people that are Avery's parents.

and that is why I love Tax Day.

CLARIFICATION...

Remember this post?

I've had a lot of negative comments relating to this specific part:

5. Don't complain about being a mother

I'm sure this goes for adoptive parents too. I know that when the time is right for me to have my own kids, I will be so eternally grateful that I can be their mother. I will cherish every moment with them. So don't complain to me about how hard motherhood is. It's harder to give birth to your child and then willingly relinquish your rights as a mother. Until you have done that, don't complain.

After reading it again, I realize that I put this a little harshly...I do understand that being a mother is an incredibely difficult job. I was not trying to say that I'm better than you because I placed my baby for adoption (obviously not..considering I was in that situation in the first place!) I wasn't trying to say that at ALL...I think I was just a little bothered about someone complaining to me before...but I really did not mean to sound so harsh. I have a lot of respect for mothers...but I'm also VERY envious. That is what I was trying to say.

 

To Elaborate a little, I want to just give an example of a mother that, has no personal experience with Adoption, yet is still SO grateful to be a mother.

My coworker and friend Krista.

She is a mother of one going on two and she has a blog.
THIS particular post is what I would like to focus on.

This post explains her frustrations.
It's HARD to be a mother.
I understand that.

But there is a difference between letting out your frustrations
vs complaining about being a mother.

I hope this clears thing up.
and
I hope that those of you that were offended, understand a little better what I meant by this statement.

I also hope that everyone understands that I don't think I'm better than others, including other mothers, because I placed for Adoption.  I didn't mean to sound that way and I definitely do NOT think this about myself. 

Forgive me?

A New Man....

yes. That's right.

I've got a new man in my life.

BUT,

because I learned my lesson with the last boy.

The new man...

He's,

well...

He's just a dream.

haha.

Know who Jensen Ackles is??

He's an Actor.

and he's SOO ATTRACTIVE.

I've been in love with him since I discovered him.

Keara and I are crossing our fingers that he will be playing Jared 

from Stephanie Meyers book "The Host".

YES

They are making that book into a movie too.

I read that book before I even knew who Jensen Ackles was...

and I gotta tell you,

he is exactly who I imagined as Jared.

I love him.

Then,

the other day, 

I discovered this Video:

HE SINGS AND PLAYS THE GUITAR TOO!!!

Seriously.

All I've gotta do now is Send some Missionaries his way. ;) 

hehe.

I'm in love.

STOP IT DREAMS!!

I've been having lots of dreams lately.

They've all been different...except for one little detail.

Keltson.

It is wierd that after a year and a half I am STILL struggling with this?

WHY CAN'T I JUST MOVE ON!!??

My last dream, the one I dreamt last night, included his mom.

and it was emotional.

I woke up crying.

I told myself I wasn't going to post about him again...but I just have to.

I can't hold it in anymore...and this blog here, it's like my Journal.

SO yes, sometimes I might put some personal struggles on here

(I am aware that it is public..which is why I don't put SUPER personal things up here...but I made this blog to talk about my struggles)

Since Keltson died,

I have felt like the 3rd wheel everywhere I go.

Especially because both the people that we hung out with at the end of his life...were married not even a year after he died.

These videos leave me bawling everytime.

ALL of the words in both of these songs fit perfectly.

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I'll see him again someday.

It's hard to have faith...when I don't understand why he was taken from us.

I miss him so much. I have never had a friend like him. No one can take his place.

I just wish I could talk to him now and hear the advice he has to give me about my current struggles.

I wish I could see MY future too. It would help a lot.

There. I'm done. Sorry to complain again.

I just had to get it out.

and I WISH that the dreams I had didn't make me miss him more.

I just want them to stop.

Worlds Worst Blogger.

Yes I am nominating myself for this award.

You can do the same if you would like.

I'm so sorry that I don't ever blog anymore!

My life is boring (which is fine with me!!)

I have been trying to think of things to blog about...

but I don't have any idea.

I COULD write about how hard it is to work with a bunch of women ALL the time...

cause that is really the extent of news in my life.

But, no one really wants to hear that.

I don't even want to hear it. :-)

haha

So...

I just decided to share this awesome picture:

I laugh so hard whenever I see this.

My brother with a moustache.

and a STYLISH one as well!!

Have a great day.

and if it's bad,

just remember this picture and it will make everything better.

To be 4 again.

I've been having a difficult time lately.

Not with the Adoption though.

In fact,

I've never been better when it comes to the Adoption.

Just as far as life and where mine is going.

I have a hard time seeing my future sometimes.

I can't see past right now.

I don't know where life is going to take me and that scares me sometimes.

Yeah I'm going to school and working.

but that's boring and I don't really want to be doing that for the rest of my life.

I don't want to do any career for the rest of my life.

The only thing I WANT to do is be a wife and mother.

(I don't care how hard it is. To be either one.)

but there is no guarantee that will happen.

So it's hard for me to move on with school and stuff when I don't really want to do that forever.

I've been really thinking about this lately.

It's not like I'm not TRYING to accomplish my goal to be a wife and mother.

I am dating.

I go out on dates.

I just haven't really dated anyone that I am really interested in enough to keep dating.

I'm not picky.

I just have requirements for my future husband.

and it's really hard to date when the guys I date don't fit those requirements...

it seems the only people I attract are opposite of what I want.

It's really depressing.

Anyway,

I'm going off on a tangent now.

This morning, I was sitting around being lazy (I love the days I can do that)

and I was watching cartoons with my little brother Joey and friend Krista's Son, Nate.

Joey got up and asked me if he could go to his friend Gage's house across the street.

I said yes and told him to watch for cars.

He threw on his shoes and Jacket and ran out the door into the snowy weather.

After the door closed,

I went over to the window to watch him cross the street to make sure he did watch for cars and that he got there safe.

When he got to the curb of our street, he stopped looked both ways for cars and then stood there for about two minutes.

I was wondering what he was doing, when he looked up into the sky, letting the huge snowflakes fall on his face.  I watched him as he sat there for a good minute, then looked both ways again and ran across the street.

I sat down in the chair in our living room, still watching him out the window and started thinking about my life and all of the stresses that come with it. I was on the verge of tears when, after there was no answer from Gage's house, Joey again walked to the end of their driveway to the curb, looked up at the sky, put his arms out and started spinning around in circles, obviously enjoying this weather.

That 4 year old boy enjoys life so much. 

He was enjoying this weather and dancing in the (what I see as dreadful) snow. 

He didn't have a worry in the world and you could see that as he spun around. 

I had to take a picture of him when he got back inside.

My dad calls Joey Tigger.

The boy doesn't just walk, he bounces when he walks, or skips.

He is such a happy kid.

One day my dad asked Joey "If you could be anyone in the world, who would you be?"

Joey looked at him for a second and then answered with complete confidence, "Joey."

This kid teaches me so much.

I know I need to enjoy life.

It would be so nice not to have a stress in the world.

It would be nice if I could answer "Andee" when someone asked me who I would be if I could be anyone in the world.

I'm not very confident and I think that is a huge problem.

I am going to start trying...as hard as possible, to enjoy life like my little brother does.

I won't let my future haunt me.

I will live in the present and hopefully,

one day,

I WILL find my prince charming.

I WILL marry for eternity in the temple

and I WILL in fact, one day, be a mother.

I know I'm only 20.

But that doesn't mean my future is easy to see.